Fanfic writers...

..you know I love you, I adore you, but sometimes you're WICKED!!!

Death fics..yep.. I have read plenty of labeled death fics, because I'm all about the angst..shed some tears, enjoyed them and moved on.
Only twice now though have they resulted in complete meltdown..full blown bawling, puffy eyes, lots of snot (Ewww..), hubby wondering what the hell's happened, and they take a long while to get over. Both have been WIP's , and okay maybe you're not expecting a happy ending, but you're not expecting that either..so it's a real sucker punch!

Both times it has been in the SPN fandom..the first time it was Dean and last night it was Sam. I now know that if Supernatural gets a good run and Kripke goes down that route..however much a Dean girl I am.. it better be him that goes! I can't handle Dean watching Sammy die, especially if he's the one pulling the trigger..which is what happened.

So today I find myself over emotional, and twice I have whacked my little toe on Chloe's highchair. How I managed to yell FUDGE! and not the other word I don't know..cause it hurts like the blazes now :-(